Was I the only one who cried to this? Probably its hormones.
Vulnerability.
Followed their journey when they first started and often look at their content & marketing for pointers, on the down low (because, Ego 😂), even if its for Youtube, because there’s always something to learn.
THIS, struck me on a very personal note. I know I don’t usually talk about my personal experiences – not even to my friends sometimes. Neither am I, in the public eye. But I know very very well, the crazy pressure of having to perform or bounce back almost immediately. In my case, after committing a grave mistake. And yes, it eats up on your conscience for the longest time because you know there are people counting on you, expecting for you to not fail, yet again. And what breaks you more, is knowing the fact that the people who are counting on you are also the very people who expects you to fail, yet again because you made a mistake despite highlighting to them multiple times, why the mistake was committed.
It is embedded in my head that whatever I say, up till now, will never justify the grave mistakes or hurt I have caused. Hence, I always strive to be there for everyone, I love. To always be better. And I am still battling to work around it and whether it a coping mechanism, tell myself that it written.
Anyways, can’t help but think at first I thought, 3 years is the make or break in a relationship. But now, i’m convinced its 10 years that is either a milestone or a make or break. However, its not about me, its about them.
Also, one of the very reasons why, from the start, I will never work or work in the same line as the partner that I am with. Because, I know myself & I know, I will never be able to take it.
This is where I relate, as a human:
When you get in a relationship or get married to someone, you have to understand that, you already have your own written journey and your partner, has his/her own written journey. When marriage happens, its a full surrender of trying to juggle both journeys no matter how it turns out. Of course, no one can ever prepare for this. Hence, I mention full surrender. However, if you still choose to marry each other after both the individual journeys, in the marriage or out, and when I say this, I mean all the failures, success, joy, tears, cheating or divorces, then I believe its really true love or jodoh. Relationships & marriages, are just the beginning in my head.
And, I still cannot comprehend why some people in our society still think that divorce is a marker of failure. In fact, I’ve always celebrated the idea that exes can at least still be cordial or even better, co-parent.
It’s harder when you let go of someone that you will always have that respect for right till the end, despite all the hardship & arguments you went through together. The hurt is naturally placed aside. And that’s why, I salute them both for being able to even record this video especially with a heart that is still hurting in so many ways. I am glad I too, had the privilege of feeling what they’re feeling, before. An exemplar level of maturity, love & respect each other.
All the best to both of you, Ryan & Sylvia! ❤️. May you be blessed with all the happiness, good health, joy & success.
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